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i hate PMS. all day my emotions have been going haywire. all i want to do is get in bed with a special someone and watch movies and eat ice cream and drink wine. its not going to happen though...hes being weird. why do all guys do the same thing to me? they act like they really want me and then they lose interest all of a sudden. i mean, he hasnt really done anything wrong. but i dont get the same feelings from him as i did at first. oh yeah....sam, you have really really nice speakers for your computer. im sorry if you didnt want me to use it, but i cant go without a computer for too long or else i go crazy. well i need to go pick someone up now so i guess ill get going. oh yeah, john is fucking weird.

ooookay
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so im completely exhausted and smelly and wonderful right now. i got the most beautiful tattoo EVER yesterday. anne looked so pleased with herself when she washed off the excess ink. she gave me a big hug and it made me happy. then after i went to sarahs and had a blast. got to hang out with the sexiest boy west of the mississippi. stayed up all night and ended up not having to work :D and now im home snuggling with my lola pants. shes got smelly ears and i love her. im going to make natalie take a picture of my new tattoo so i can post it online. yay! ok. shower time now.

oookay
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so its new tattoo day. i always get nervous on new tattoo day. getting started on my roses with anne. i swear if she fucks up im going to kill her. hopefully ill be able to find someone to do touch ups if she does. i hope she does a good job! ahhh!!! ok. i need to go to the bank now.

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ok, so mid pen graduation tonight. im kinda nervous because there are some people there i could really do without seeing. BUT my little natalie poo is going to graduate so i have to go. dont know what time we are leaving. i have a store meeting at 3 that im really not looking forward to. i guess i should start getting ready for that soon. i wish werent so picky about which chex mix i will eat. i end up with half a bag of pretzels when im done with it. hmm...

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my life has been one big emotional rollar coster lately. i dont know what to do anymore. i wish i were better at talking to people. im horrible at communicating. i really really like someone but i dont know how they feel for me, so instead of setting myself up for disaster i almost feel like distancing myself from him. if he doesnt want a relationship i might as well just stick with the other guy because at least i know where its going. the sex might not be as good, but at least he could never hurt me like the other one could. hopefully ill build up the courage to talk to him so that i can know where this is going.

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ughh...im soooo sick right now. i really want someone to bring me something to eat because if i leave my room i get so cold that i feel like im going to die. so if anyone reads this and lives near me and feels like bringing me some food then i would be much obliged. i hope i feel better by tomorrow because i have some stuffs to do. im going to fremont tomorrow night to talk to sam's mom and figure out what i need to do while im there. and then i decided to kill two birds with one stone and call ian and see if he wanted to hangout, since he lives in fremont as well. so i called him and he said yes, i dont know what we are going to do though. i guess we can figure that out tomorrow. i kinda wish i had gone to my grandma's house today like i said i would because i like being taken care of when im sick. and thats what grandma's do best! i took some nyquil about 10 minutes ago so hopefully that kicks in soon. well i guess im going to go lay down for a little while.

could a song be any more perfect for how i feel right now?
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In your room where time stands still
Or moves at your will.
Will you let the morning come soon,
Or will you leave me lying here?

In your favorite darkness,
Your favorite half-light,
Your favorite consciousness,
Your favorite slave.

In your room where souls disappear -
Only you exist here.
Will you lead me to your armchair,
Or leave me lying here?

Your favorite innocence,
Your favorite prize,
Your favorite smile,
Your favorite slave.

I'm hanging on your words,
Living on your breath,
Feeling with your skin.
Will I always be here?

In your room your burning eyes
Cause flames to arise.
Will you let the fire die down soon,
Or will I always be here?

Your favorite passion,
Your favorite game,
Your favorite mirror,
Your favorite slave.

I'm hanging on your words,
Living on your breath,
Feeling with your skin.
Will I always be here?

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tonight has totally restored my faith in friendship. i had a really good time. and im about to have a really nice relaxing 10 days to myself. this month is really starting to get better.

yeah, fuck you too.
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i still hate everything and i need to get laid.

ughh
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its just one of those days where i feel like shit and no matter what i cant change that. i guess i just need to shower and get ready...then hopefully i wont feel half as gross as i do now. oooh AND i have to go to dinner with chyckin tonight...that should be interesting. im going over to johns house in a little bit though because hes cleaning his house and im such a super cool person that im going to go keep him entertained whilst he cleans. i hope he doesnt ask for me to help. im not in the cleaning mood...

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